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              The Bible is full of stories about men who have at one point turned away from God.  The Old Testament reminds me of a 1980’s horror movie.  The ones that when you are watching you are like, “No you idiot don’t open the door!” but the whole time you know they are going to.  I mean it’s obvious what is going to happen.  All of your friends have disappeared, there is a pool of blood seeping in underneath the door, and yet they still open the door.

               This is the way I live my life… Right down to the creepy music that starts to play after the first knocks.  I know what is going to happen when I open the door, but I open it anyway.  Every time I am left questioning myself.  I yell at the screen, “Why you idiot, you knew what was going to happen! Why did you open that door!”  This never seems to resolve anything.  Eventually I get past the why.  The why is a “sunk cost.”  Sunk cost is an accounting term that means something that cannot be recovered regardless of decisions made after the fact.  So now what? I’ve turned from God….again, what now.

               I guess there are really only two places I can go.  I can attempt to continue in the direction I am going, or, I can RETURN.  Psalm 71:20 says, “Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again.”  This is a great passage to reflect on.  Troubles many and bitter.  I have experienced some moments in my life that were almost so bitter I can still taste them today.  Some of them were because of decisions that were made by other people, and some, the very bitter ones, were because of decisions that I made myself.  Sometimes it’s hard to even get past that part of the verse.  If you do get past that part of the verse, there is Truth. Truth that regardless of your situation or how far you have gone that Jesus can and will restore your life.